That does it. I'm officially depressed.
I feel dumb for wishing and even dumber for believing.
I had an awesome day, and a glimpse into my future career and it looks so exciting.
But I couldn't even really enjoy it.
It's like he has left all over again.
Constantly on the verge of tears, feeling weak, defeated, and sullen.
It's my blog, I'm allowed to whine. I don't do it in real life so I'm going to do it here.
I mean seriously, not even a note in almost 2 months now?
Send me an effing post card.
I want to be angry, but I can't be angry because that would be selfish.
I can't be sad because that would be prideful.
I can't be anxious because that would be impatience.
I can only be happy. That is the only emotion I am allowed to feel.
I can only be happy, when all I want is to kick and scream and cry and demand answers.
But I can't, because that would be childish.
I don't want to be happy.