Darling you send me...

Honest you do...

I don't know what it is about those old songs that make me feel all dreamy and romantical.  Suddenly I am innocent and naive and easy to please.  All things that society will have us believe make us "simple" or "old fashioned".  Well so what? Isn't happiness simple?  Its pretty old fashioned as well.  NO one writes songs about simple happiness and bliss of being in love.  There is always something that has gone wrong or complicated it, and now the song is about the angst rather than the joy...

Its now or never, come hold me tight...Be mine tonight

Why do we have to make everything so crazy and complicated.  Who decided that made life BETTER?  Don't get me wrong, I am eternally grateful for electricity and the internet and the invention of the iPhone, but they didn't really make me any happier...well....maybe they did, but I think mostly they just over-stimulated me to the point where if I'm not doing 200 things I feel bored.

Put your head on my shoulder, hold me in your arms baby...Maybe you and I will fall in love.

Remember that feeling?  The first time you held hands with him, the first time you finally let him steal that kiss...The secret kisses you had in the kitchen before your friends knew you were together...what about the time you finally spit out "I love you" after trying to hold it in for days because you know it but are afraid to say it too soon...  Simple joy.  Why can't life be full of that all the time?

At last my love has come along, my lonely days are over...and life is like a song

So my message to you all tonight: life IS like a song sometimes, just make sure you're listening to the right station.  I'm gonna try harder to stay out of my own way,  to not limit my own happiness because I think I don't deserve it because I haven't done A, B, or C.  You don't need A, B and C before you can be happy, being happy fuels your path to A, B, and C.  I'm gonna enjoy it. You should all try it too :)

My romance doesn't need a castle rising in Spain

Nor a dance to a constantly surprising refrain

Wide awake I can make my most fantastic dreams come true

My romance doesn't need a thing but you...

Milestone #7: 525,600 Minutes

It's here! as of today there is exactly one more year of Jordan's mission!

I'm not gonna lie here: this is a REALLY weird thing to think about.  I'm excited because its half way...but then I'm SUPER depressed because its...HALF way.  Still, I can recognize that it is a good thing, and everyone...seriously EVERYONE keeps telling me that the second  year goes faster than the first.  Which starts off sounding awesome, but then I think: "shoot! I'm totally not ready for him to come back yet! I'm still a horrible person with a fat fatty problem!" ;)

Seriously though, it feels good.  Starting tomorrow there wont be another October 12th that I wont be able to at least talk to him if I really want to.  And I really want to. So here is to one more year...maybe I'll finally get my (big) butt in gear :P

For the Sake of Updating

Today is the 333rd day of Jordan's mission, that means 401 days left...32 til the coveted half-way mark.

And I've surprised even myself by still being ridiculously in love. No seriously.  It's ridiculous. Makes no sense whatsoever.

That being said, I'm still nowhere near a lot of my goals.  My scripture reading is going well, I'm paying all except one bill, and I can cook every day if I wanted to (I'm still working on the wanting to part). My savings account hasn't fully recovered from Europe yet, but I think that is allowed since I promptly moved out. I have graduated and I even received my official diploma in the mail a few days ago.  I need a better job, for sure.  One that will give me benefits.  Don't even get me started on where I SHOULD be physically because I'm pretty sure it would just depress me to think about it.... But here's the thing: for the most part I'm pretty dang happy.  I have my days, yes. But I have the best friends I've ever had and they take care of me, love me, and support me better than any other group ever has.  I love them like family at this point, and though I can't see into the future, I really think these people will be with me for the rest of my life. *aw misty eyed sniffles*

I'm still in shock as to how quickly things change, but so far this whole moving out and becoming my own person has worked out extremely well for me, with the exception of finding a new job that will actually put my degree to use.

So whats next on the agenda?

• Taking the CHES (Certified Health Education Specialist) Exam in October so I can be: 

 Chantal Morgan, CHES

Looks pretty awesome, eh?

• Trying out for "Dance Your Ass Off" in LA on November 21st...oh yeah, I'm doing it, and I'm gonna ROCK it.
• Actually working out. (For serious this time guys)

• Plan my next fabulous vacation...I'm thinking something much less expensive this time though

So stay tuned...It's gonna be an awesome ride

I mean, "men are that they might have joy..." right? Right.

Milestone #6: And the times they are a changin'

Welcome to grown-up land! It's terrifying.

I will be moving out in a couple months.  My Mother is still in a little bit of denial about this which makes it a little hard, but I know it is time for me to grow up a little.  

I graduated College

I went on an amazing two week adventure through Western Europe (post coming soon)

I am now looking for a true career with benefits, not just a job

And I'm sharing a bed with my Mother. 

One of these things is not like the other...

I know it's not the smartest thing financially, but at a certain point we all have to take a step into the scary and make a place for ourselves.  I do not want to be 30 and still living at home, having never left (with or without my husband).  If I fail at this, I'm going down swinging.  A life of having things handed to me and the way manicured and prepared before me has never been my destiny, I know this.  The Lord hasn't told me "no" when I ask him, so I'm going for it.  

Besides all this, I will get married eventually (*fingers crossed*) and I can only learn good skills by doing this.  Its an investment in my future.  Is it scary? yes.  Am I freaking out a little bit? yes.  

But I am excited, because it's right.

Milestone #5: Day 227

Today:

I crocheted (Kristen taught me how=))
I got a spray tan (shhhexy)
I went to Islands twice
I played with an adorable tiny ewok dog
I encouraged civil disobedience
I bought a graduation dress
I bought all last minute vacation items
Most exciting: I got a letter from Jordan!!! only 2 weeks between letters this time! Included in the envelope was an "Arizona Tucson Mission Dating Application" which was a joke, obviously, but its hilarious and I'm gonna fill it out and send it back to him anyway =)

Tomorrow:

I graduate college with a Bachelors Degree in Health Science
I have to wake up at 5:30 AM which makes me think attending the ceremony is dumb
I rush to church to still be able to hopefully fulfill my calling and turn in my tithing
I have a HUGELY GINORMOUS party at my house to celebrate
I start packing for my European Vacation, (I leave on the 25th!)
Most Exciting: Writing back and telling him about all the exciting things in my life

My priorities seem out of whack

Milestone #4: The Mother's Day Phone Call

I was there.

And I am so crazy happy about all that was said

Let's just say all doubt has been removed, and it is game on

Hearing him all super happy and talkative is the best thing I've heard in a long time.

I was also told that I have a letter in the mail, WITH PICTURES

How am I supposed to go to work in the morning when I'm still excited about what happened tonight?

Milestone #3: 200 days down...

534 to go

Yeah, I don't even know what to say about it other than that.  I just felt like I should commemorate the milestone somehow.

Even though I've given up on...well everything and just turned jaded instead.

Happy 200 days, invisible person that loved me 6 months ago.